Power versus Presence

There are times when we have to choose whether it is truly God we want, or if we want all of the blessings that come with knowing God. What are we after? Is it power in whatever we’re pursuing? Or is it God’s deep and unending presence? I’d like to propose that having power without God’s presence is having nothing at all, is having complete emptiness and destitution.

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Contemplative Thoughts and Answered Prayers

As those who read this blog regularly know, I recently made a huge move and life change from New York City, one of the major metropolitan areas of the world, to a small town in Northern California, predominantly known for a mega-church. I am still not sure how I knew for certain that I should move here, and quite honestly, I do not think I knew definitively at all.

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Hunger Pangs

God—you’re my God! I can’t get enough of you! I’ve worked up such hunger and thirst for God, traveling across dry and weary deserts. So here I am in the place of worship, eyes open, drinking in your strength and glory. In your generous love I am really living at last! My lips brim praises like fountains. I bless you every time I take a breath; my arms wave like banners of praise to you (Psalms 63:1-4).

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The Process of Pruning

All settled into my new life in Northern California, attending a major mega-church focused on revival and creating true disciples of Christ, I am experiencing both brilliant growth and incredible pruning.

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Letting Go, Trusting God with a Major Move

I’ve lived on the East Coast forever. My biggest move thus far was moving fifteen minutes away from my hometown to move to New York City. It was an amazing move and it has lasted seven years. Seven wonderful, action-packed years. Thus, it is particularly strange for me to decide to move cross-country, without a job in place, to be able to attend a church. Yes, that’s right. I want to move from New York to a small town in Northern California for a church. I don’t have a job in place. There are barely any jobs there. I don’t know what the details will look like. But I’m going on the faith I have in God’s guidance.

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Forever Thankful, Forever Changed

My friend runs over to me during worship and says, “I just want you to know he loves you and is mending your heart.” I, slightly confused and unaware replied, “Who’s he?” Not a second later, I followed the statement up by saying, “…Jesus?” My friend nodded, looking as if it was the most obvious declaration ever stated. In that moment, I turned back around to face the worship band, and started uncontrollably crying. “Me?” “You know me, Jesus?” “Not only do you know me, but you love me?”

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Love is Everything

“My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.” John 15:12

I received this verse through my daily devotional a few weeks ago. I have, of course, seen the verse many times before, and simply thought, “sure, of course, that makes sense, love everyone how Jesus loves us.” I thought that was all there was, a simple statement to love others “a lot”.

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